Today is the Autumn Equinox – Mabon and I’m pausing to reflect, appreciate and honour the changing of the season.
My contemplation began at the end of last week. I’d spent an empowering day in the company of my inner circle of girlfriends, sharing our latest adventures and happenings of the past few months over a delicious pub lunch.
Setting off for the drive back home my sat nav suggested an alternative, quicker route, which would lead me through the narrow country lanes of Berkshire and Hampshire. Navigating these undulating narrow and twisty roads, the enormity of what I have been through in the last few months occurred to me. This drive was a reflection of those past few months with its unexpected twists and turns, bumpy hills……. and not knowing what may be approaching as I took the next corner.
Oh the irony! This year, this project, was intended to address simplicity. That hasn’t been my experience.
Yet we create our own reality and the truth of the matter is, I have focused my energy elsewhere. Simplicity was a desire, a nice to have but my commitment wasn’t there. I’d not considered what simplicity meant to me, what it might look and feel like.
That’s the thing about setting intentions. Unlike traditional outcome focused goals intentions allow room for manoeuvre, to be in the moment and I take responsibility for this slipping through my net.
Which brings me to today, the Autumn Equinox, where day and night are of equal length. A time of balance.
This morning I walked the labyrinth to assist my quest in readdressing where my life feels a little off balance. Walking towards the centre I asked “What do I need to do differently?”, “What do I need to do more of?” and “What do I need to do less of?”
Each step grounded me and opened my heart.
Pausing in the centre, the answers came. Clearer boundaries, permission to be kinder, gentler to yourself, allowing myself to receive more. Nothing new, just a new level. By the time my return journey out of the labyrinth was complete I felt incredibly lighter and expanded.
And now back at home writing this, I am able to appreciate all the bumps, twists and turns along the way, for the lessons shown and the gifts to equip my new ways of being.
As the wheel of the year turns once more and we begin our transition into this beautiful autumnal season, I feel excited to welcome simplicity, knowing what that now looks and feels like.